stuck with nothing
Nothing to do but time to kill.Archive for October, 2007
Dis.A.pOint.Ment
“I tried to fight the feeling,“
It was a sleepless night, up late doing assignments I slept close to 2am. Just before I closed my eyes something bothered me. Darn! Just before I was going off to La~La~ land, I was struck by a dilemma. I miss somebody. My thoughts were running wild, I was thinking of her. I wanted so desperately to hold her, to see her- to see her beautiful smile once again. 
In the dark of the night, I struggled to keep my feelings bottled. These things are my deepest secrets. I have never told anyone and hope no one ever finds out. I know one day I’ll no longer be able to hold it in but until that moment comes, I’ll keep looking on from afar. Admiring in awe at her beauty. Oh how I long for that moment to come but fate wouldn’t let me. 
Her heart belongs to another guy. It hurts me so much but I must remain silent. Not being able to do anything about it. Not wanting to spoil her happiness. In the end I’m a victim. Unable to approach her, unable to do whatsoever. However, I’ll keep holding on- in the hope that one day my moment will come. 
“…the feeling brought me down.“
Abu: One Night Only- Cardiff
Title: Fluorescent Adolescent Artist: Abu Q Director: Shy 
Rating: ***** (5 stars) 
Catchphrase~
“A rose by any other name..“
It is indescribable. 
It is that feeling of joy, of pure elation when one finally realises that he/she is free to go anywhere, at anytime. It is the feeling that ‘new’ drivers get. 
If before they have to rely on others to get around and only at certain times, now they have freedom of the open road, given of course, there’s a spare car lying around. 
Drivers are a special breed of people, they are the people who have succeeded in mastering the ways of the four/three/two-wheeled machines and the rules of the open road.
In the USA, 16 is the magic number but in Brunei the magic number is 16+2. Hence, when a person in Brunei reaches 18 he/she has this dream of being able to drive within 6 months of achieving that age. Which is true in most cases, personally I’ve observed my friends getting their driving licenses in less than a month after turning 18. :surprise: In those early weeks, life just zips zooms past and the one most valuable thing in wallets and purses is the sacred driver’s license. With it one can drive to anywhere and at anytime, bringing joy to a new drivers life and it also instills envy in other people who have yet to drive.
On the other hand, driving does also bring with it a big and heavy burden. 
First, there’s the financial cost of driving. FUEL! REPAIRS! STEREO! 
Then there’s the ever-present danger that lurks in every twist and turn of the road. After that there’s your parents constantly reminding you to drive carefully and to add to the excitement, the police is out to spoil your fun. And to add insult, new drivers most often find themselves being tasked with such enjoyable jobs as delivering the trash, accompanying mum to the market and the undisputed cherry in the cake, sending and picking up younger siblings to and from school. Which understandably entails being stuck in a traffic jam.
Alas, driving a means of freedom is also a form of enslavement most brutal in its subtleties.
“..would smell as sweet.“
